we're too lost to lose hope

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 07:06:30 GMT

i cut the shit out of my balls today. it really hurt!

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 05:16:36 GMT

i finally got my phone back. soooo i need your numbers! give em up!

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 02:39:18 GMT

today was amazing. got my first paper back and got an a. have an awesome weekend in store, hanging out with some new people and hanging out with the boys on saturday, even though im missing out on wrestling (no money). just in an awesome mood. i feel accomplished. i dont feel like doing anything.

get with it and listen to some amazing music
www.myspace.com/soaknwetmusic
rob and i have made a brand new band. best music ever.

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 23:16:09 GMT

its weird there have been 3 seperate occasions that i really wanted to write about but have totally just spaced on because ive been quite busy.

phones been broken...should be here soon so i will be needing numbers.

been meeting a lot of new people, which is always nice. lots of new opportunities...we will see.

i am COMPLETELY obsessed with the band the morning light. idk what it is but they just do it for me. i really hope their full length delivers...it also makes me feel pretty old and want to be in a band again. atleast its motivating me to write music.

im 98 percent sure i got a job at starbucks off of the montrose brown line stop. had my interview it went well. talked to him today and he said he will probably be puting me on next weeks schedule. its right where that giant water pipe burst so he has other crap on his hands right now which is understandable. im just glad to have gotten that out of the way.

suns game last night was awesome. they scared me, as usual, only securing a win within the last 4 minutes of the game. being with sam and my dad was really nice though. it made me really appreciate the time i get to spend with that end of my family...my dad busts his ass. im sure hes proud of us. i just hate how sad he 90 percent of the time. its hard to handle.

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 07:06:40 GMT

ive been so swept up in school work its been hard to step back and realize everything that happend with fab. everything started fast and everything ended fast. it doesnt nessicarily hurt me in the pit of my stomach...probably because it was ultimately my decision. but there is this nagging what if. a lot of me felt like i didnt know her and a lot of me told me that we were quite different...

but theres no denying how i felt when i was with her. and there is no describing the feeling that just maybe the girl you are supposed to be with is 4000 miles away...

when you know youll never truly be together.

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 22:33:50 GMT

thank you rob.

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 20:07:48 GMT

and im single again... im upset but it needed to be done.

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 18:19:20 GMT

so despite the bull shit fight with fab, last night was awesome. tim just left and it was really nice to see him. i love that dude. im really glad we have stayed close through all of the changes and moves. im going to try and get him into austin's hxc band with me. well see. it should be fun

today brian is coming which im excited about. im sure lots of fun will be had and drinks will be consumed.

i have a feeling things with fab will come to a head today. we will see.

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 21:56:11 GMT

im extremely happy in chicago, living with rob, being in school, being on my own again...and pretty much with everything going on right now...except one thing. that i need to fix. immediatly.

did i fall in love with the possibilites? the new experiences...who knows. but i have to make a decision now.

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 05:54:20 GMT

so ive made this commitment to myself to read absolutly every assingment i am given this semester. soooo much god damn reading. like hours and hours a day. its just really important i have an amazing quarter grade wise so its easy for them to place me in student teaching. i guess we will see how i fair.

i miss my fucking girlfriend.

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 04:00:48 GMT

listening to the rebroadcasting of the new hampshire democratic debate on npr and watching a few obama speeches online just made me get my illinois voter registration squared away...as should you if you havent!

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 17:51:28 GMT

so im sick as balls. i think i got whatver rob was killing rob before i moved in...who knows coughing a lot though so maybe it wont be that bad. i hope not...because he was out for a while.

today i will do nothing. i will use my sickness as an excuse to do nothing at all....except do some homework.

the game last night was actually quite awesome. it was real close and it was nice to be back at notre dame since i hadnt been there in so long. god i love watching basketball live but it makes me do the what if thing with my knee every single time. i could be dunking on fools.

alright breakfast time.

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 20:54:26 GMT

yesterday was a hard day. school was bullshit but whatever. just one class. there were a couple people from my orrientation in it so it made it a little easier

i met with lauren and it was sufficiently akward. i was happy to se her though. she looks good and im very glad that she is happy in her life. i also found out that she has started dating someone...i really took it a lot better then i thought i would. the only hard part for me was that its a guy that was always there trying to pick her up everytime her and i would go through problems. so whatever...shes all yours now. im happy with who i have...

which leads to part two of my day. a big fight with fab. it wasnt a stupid pointless fight. it was more about her coming here and, with the acceptance of recent job, how things might not work out as cleanly as we thought it might. its hard to balance feelings and practicality. after a long fight and a night to think about everything that went down we talked for an hour this morning. we decided we want to stay together and that we wouldnt have went through all of this in the first place for nothing. but she knows how i feel...that i cant wait forever. so...for now we are fine. i really do love her...hopefully things will work out.

im off to take a shower and then to notre dame with dad, sam, and maria for a bball game. should be fun. i miss them a lot already.

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 04:14:00 GMT

so i would like to start writing in here again. most of my old friends dont really use it anymore but idk...i dont really care if anyone reads it. its more to just get back in to the habit of writing regularly.

stars...an amazing band. "in our bedroom after the war" is one of my favorite records of 07... too bad i didnt discover it until 08.

obama won iowa. good. thank god. i was pretty dissapointed that i moved out of iowa before i was able to be a part of the whole causus experience in iowa city. it would have been nice to have been involved, espescially when there is a candidate that i fully support

school started today. it went like this: first class, 1800-1900 US history was cancelled for no particular reason. proceeded to waste time in the student center. went and tried to get a job at the bookstore. went to my second class, social issues in education and LOVED my teacher. went to my last class of the day, catholic social issues, and hated every minute of it.
overall im very excited to be back in school. just makes me feel...smart again. i was feeling like quite the waste in racine

need to start a band now. i plan on recording all the shit i have been writing in the next couple weeks.

alright enough for today.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 02:48:13 GMT

in case you are still interested

the final between you and me demo with marc mcclusky is up for full free download on our myspace

www.myspace.com/betweenyouandme

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 03:54:44 GMT

so im having a little get together at my house friday night, chicago dudes. just a reason to drink together and sort of celebrate my bday.

so come. nothing fancy. no presents or whatever. my house will be totally empty so feel free to bring whoever. should start around 8

my adress is 4870 N. California Ave....my moms house. youve been there im sure

COME COME COME

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 21:20:35 GMT

so i watched grave of fireflies the other night and it made me cry.

all i do is play guitar...im so excited to move back to chi.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 05:17:49 GMT

i reeeeeaaaally hope to see all my dudes this sunday at our show. get there early because i think we play early

check www.myspace.com/betweenyouandme for the flier

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 01:33:55 GMT

we just got two chicagoland shows. ONE IN THE CITY with fucking doug's (from WY) band. i cant believe im playing a show with him hahahaha

May 6th at Subterranean in Chicago

and May 27th in Aurora

Check BYAM's myspace for more info!

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 20:27:18 GMT

sexy nigs
i need all of your phone numbers again.
this means everyone from chicago.
hook it up cuz my phone got jacked

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 02:04:20 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07W7-4Meffo

everyone must watch this

especially brian

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 22:02:29 GMT

nevermind we arent playing lifetime anymore. fuck.

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 17:46:26 GMT

sooooo its been a while but i wanted to put this on here

we are playing with LIFETIME in milwaukee on april 24th.
everyone should come!
if you want tickets let me know and i can get them for you

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 07:01:08 GMT

this is video documents what happend when all my chicago friends came to iowa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zvTRQr7ns8

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 09:21:36 GMT

the new fall out boy song thats on ap.net is fucking garbage.